Been a long time!

Wow it's been a REALLY long time since I've posted on here. In fact I was pretty sure that my account had been frozen. So much has happened since last Oct. I got engaged, my Fiance and I got our dream home, and last month I lost my Mom and my dog. I still can't believe that my Mom is gone, the other night I had a dream about her. She was sitting on the patio just laughing and talking and smiling like she hadn't a care in the world. My breath caught in my throat when I saw her, and ran right up and touched her arm to make sure she was real. She just smiled and told me that everything would be okay now. But of course I woke up only to remember that everything is NOT okay and never will be again. The thing I miss most is how present my Mom always was. No matter what she was always right there with you. I just wish I could wrap myself in one of her wonderful hugs. So anyway it's almost 1 in the morning and I'm crying into my keyboard. Ever since she died I have had a horrible time sleeping, I just miss her so much I can't close my eyes. So that is all for now, I'm gonna try to get some shut eye.